In need of closure any ways to get it?

well im a female sap and i feel like i wasted my life but i dont want to feel like that any more because all my life i felt stuck and i keep having recurring dreams of a little fat boy who cant get off his bed because hes not allowed to get out of his room and he has a really small room hes stuck in the dream i think that represents me and im really depressed about it but I dont know what to do in order to get that little fat boy out of his room metaphorically speaking i think i need closure but im afraid to tell any one about this plz anser